Hi 2013

Happy new year!
1st of January 2013, i update my blog.
Such a rare scene.
Nothing much to update.
Just wanna greet and express my feeling toward 2013.
I'm looking forward to 2013, wish it will be a better year. =)

I love to saw my men on stage!
YG Family rocked the stage again!
Love their performance!

Christmas present

It's so lucky that I finished exam before Christmas!

I dont wanna spend my Christmas and New Year for study like hell.

That's why i received many present right after exam end! weee~

As usual, my besties brought me Christmas present.

So sorry for them cause I'm always the one never get back something for them.

Especially this time, cause I really really really pk jor. ><

They asked me not to feel guilty but it's hard not to feel that. haiz~

But this all not the most surprising thing.

The most surprising thing was a VIP onnie that spent less than 24 hours with me at the Bigbang Alive Tour Concert had sent me Christmas present by post!

She purposely asked my address some more.

I really felt sooo touch about that.

Is not about how much for the present but is her afford!

She really super friendly and nice! Thanks again June onnie!

She sent me a Christmas card, a really nice Christmas tree card!

And it included 5 DVD and 1 CD, the DVD is the making of alive album and some show of Bigbang. 

The CD is the book wrote by Bigbang called Extraordinary 20's that had been translated as the original language is Korean. I'm super love it!

Next, my 2 besties Joey and Joyce brought me a necklace and bracelet. 

I love them so much, I got more accessories!!! =D

Lastly, my lovely roommate Yvette brought me a scarf.

She said she never saw me got or use a scarf, so she brought one for me.

She brought me my favourite colour some more! =)

Thank you very much you all!

Wish you all good luck in future.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

June onnie gave me this!

Joyce's bracelet on left side and Joey's necklace on right side. Nice!

Sorry Yvette, didnt take photo for the scarf. ><

2012

Is been a long time didint update you again, my blog.
I'm sorry~ *haha, not really that sincere
Time passed like rocket, it's really fast until I didnt realized it.
2012, a year that quite many things happened on me.
Actually not, it's not many but is so deep n clear memory that I can remember.
As you all know, I'm a gemini and I dont remember things.
But, in 2012 there are two things had happened on me and I clearly remembered it.

Firstly, it happened in the upper year of 2012.
I broke up with my ex.
It was so suffer that time and I still to handle my final exam.
I remembered how I spent my day during that tough period.
First time, I really realized how much important is my family and some friends that really helped and accompanied me went through those days.
I really thank them for loving me and caring me. I love you all too!
And now, I'm still me.
Living happily and moving forward!
But sometime, some of those memories still appear in my mind.
Dont worry, I understand that memories is memories, it not the place to stay. =)

The second important thing is I fall in love with five men and one group named BIGBANG!
I really can't actually tell you the exact day and reason why I started to like them.
But for sure, it had distracted me from keep thinking about the broke up thingy.
And 27/10/2012 was the awesome day! I went to watch their concert!
BIGBANG ALIVE TOUR 2012 IN MALAYSIA!!!!
I'm super duper triple happy to see them in real!
Five of them are so leng zai!!!! especially my man: G-DRAGON!!!
*I definitely gonna update a post about him! <3
So happy to become a VIP!! will always support them. =)
They rocked MAMA 2012 too! that's my men!

There were a lots of things happened on me in 2012 but I can't remember all.
My brain capacity is too small. sometime I wish to remember all the things but it fail.
That's all to conclude my 2012.
Christmas is coming and so do New Year!
Wish everyone Merry Christmas and New Year!
See you soon 2013.

That my men!!! ♥

对号入座

最近，对号入座的毛病又犯了。

希望不是在说我，我的心会很不安。

我就是这么介意别人的看法。

什么时候我才能把这些毛病都除掉。

什么时候我才可以无忧无虑的不看别人的脸色。

如果是像我想的这样，希望ta不要放在心上。

不然，以后会很难做事。

Time fly like rocket

Seriously, time passed super fast. 

Its like faster than blinking your eyes.

Previous semester I were waiting like hell for the news of BB concert.

Then waiting for ticket selling.

Lastly, waiting for the day to come.

But now, all were over. So fast!

And now I'm already in another semester.

It's a short semester, and it's a rushing semester where everything need to be double up.

Even hardwork need to be double up too. >.<

And the important point is that now already November, it's mean 2012 has going to end.

Oh gosh, I'm super old already. 

But I have done nothing. I just have too many weaknesses.

And too many uncertainties I need to face in the future.

Hope everything will be fine for me.

Hope that I have the strength to overcome all these obstacles. 

Hope everything goes smoothly. 

Hope everyone be health and happy.

*Hoping and Praying*

Here is the only photo I took on the concert day.

Is the scene of the end of the concert.

Until Whenever

Now is 2 days ago from the concert. I still not yet come back for that day.
Although it just 2 and a half hour time spent with them, but I will never ever forget this wonderful awesome fairytale night with them. Bigbang.
My bias, my favourite, my loved group.
Their performance was just one word: awesome!
Their music is just so different from other male group.
After I watched their live performance, I'm didnt regret on my decision.
Those feelings just cant be expressed by words.
Nothing can be said.
I enjoyed the whole concert with my own eyes, singing together with five of them.
Getting so close yet still far from them, but at least better than other CAT.
First time went for concert that paid myself.
Really really a memorable night with them.
Really hope that they will come Malaysia more frequent.
So so so so happy thing that had done so far in my life.
Will always support them.
LOVE BIGBANG!
UNTIL WHENEVER!
BIGBANG ROCKS!
MY-VIPS ROCKS!

Is it really a issue?

Just got annoyed and pissed off with a person.
Is it really a problem to pay money to watch your idol's concert?
I just don't get it, it maybe seem a joke to you but to the person personally is not.
Although you said I have the right to decide to buy the ticket but what you didn't really didn't show what you think.
Pls la. stop making funny of me with the BB concert ticket.
This is not a hot issue anymore.
Different people have different values I know this.
But please be considerate too, as your words may get people piss off.

Y2S1 sem break

Super long time didnt update a proper post already.
Just finished my Y2S1 final exam, I have 1 more holiday week compared to other people.
So, I really really need to find a part time job.
Besides that occupying my sem break, I need to pay back the concert ticket.
Luckily found this job, quite good salary and job scope.
Haha. First time saw an organization's top management office.
What a great experience! I able to saw 4 football stars' signatures.
Pires, Giggs, Owen and Gernard. If not mistaken. =P
And able to met new friends too. =)

This is my title: Office Space Consultant
Such a nice title! Haha.


Pass- to access into the level

These are the equipment used during the job. =)

PDA- key in the data

All the equipment

seriously, need some motivation.

useless aimless meaningless

Feel so useless on myself.
nothing special on myself.
everyone having their own characteristic and interests.
me?! piece of shit. ><
haiz. very sien.
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?! ><

BB

Maybe knowing Bigbang at this time is like faith.
because of them and their songs, made me no other time to waste for HIM.
really thanks a lot to them.
and I really like them so much especially GD and TOP! <3

p/s: I really wanna go their concert leh!
GOD, pls let me find someone go with me.
kam sa ha mi ta!!!!

woaita- dingdang

我不会忘记，只是会学会放下。
毕竟，TA是除了家人以外，第一个这么爱过的人。

那一晚，听着哼着。
眼泪沾满了眼眶。

只是一句祝贺语，没有任何意义。
这样告诉自己的。

音乐

音乐，是个奇妙的东西。
悲伤时听悲歌，会把自己心情听进去。
高兴时听悲歌，会把歌听得很可笑。
悲伤时听快歌，会让自己勉强快乐。
高兴时听快歌，会让自己更心情愉快。

什么时候听什么样的歌，产生的心情和感觉都不同。
但不变的事，音乐无时无刻陪伴在我们身边。
谢谢你，音乐。 =)

Angel vs Devil

Struggled with myself while.

but my devil won.

opened my old account to look for him.

I really want to hold myself not to click on it.

but my heart is too strong, is stronger than my mind.

when? when I can totally letting go all of his thing.

I know, I understand, it cannot be rush.

if there is a person call Time, I will want to be he/she's best friends.

because, people always said: time is needed.

今天晚上，再放任自己一次。
希望也是最后一次。

我还好

我真的还好!
我不敢说我很好，但至少我还过得不错。
我没有你们想得那么脆弱，纵使我样子不坚强。
决定了放下，我会做到。
但是，一切还是需要时间。
至少，最难过的日子已经过了。
不要再担心了大家！

小三，祝你和负心汉天长地久。
别再伤害无辜人士。
感谢万分。=)

思绪很乱，心情很怪。
不知道自己想干嘛。
可能是一不小心，又想到一些不该想的事。

成长就是要受伤？

收了伤，就不能再回到以前的自己。

因为，我们都长大了。

谢谢你们，爱我的每个人。

事情过了快一个月了。
可能是考试的原因，强逼自己快点整理好情绪。
我想，最难熬的时刻因该过了。
可是，有这么一天。
一个朋友说，你那里像失恋。
那一秒，自己愣了一下。
就在下一秒，我说，难道你要我对着你哭？
那时，心里的确不好受。
我不能说我已经百分之百放下。
但是，我确定我在努力。
可能是你们所说的，双子就是这么花心。
说真的，三年的感情的确是在的。
我不是冷血，也不是没有心痛。
只是，难道我要这样过一辈子吗？
我只是在努力的做我因该做的事。
不想让爱我护我的人为我担心。
不想为了一个不爱我的人，而伤害爱我的人。
我是熬过来了，可能只是比别人快一些。
但不代表我没要真正爱过。
生命就只有那么几十年，我真的不想浪费在不快乐的事件上。
那只会伤人伤己。

真的是很感谢我的家人和朋友。
尤其是他们，在我最难熬最痛苦的时候，陪在我身边。
一千个一万个谢谢，我想也不够。=)
爱你们！，<3

Maybe you all will say I'm lying to myself.
But I really feel that there is still something between us.
I really don't know what to do.
He said no and I trusted him.
But really jealous and mad it, flirting with him.
My life now is totally suck and mess.
I wanna focus on final exam but sometime I can't.
I'm scare of many things now.
Scare my result drop.
Scare he's leaving.
Scare I can't go through this mess.
I'm sucks!

只有在这里，才可以随心所欲得发泄。
只有在这里，他才看不到。
我不想让他觉得有压力。

我会把那些约一千个我们一起的日子，
放到心里的一个盒子。
把它标签为回忆。

我想生病。
一场很大很大很大的病。
大得可以让我忘记他。

我可以看得出我们不是没感觉。
可是他一点也没有想要挽回。
原来他的自尊重要过我。

My heart is so pain, any painkiller to cure?
any medicine to cure this disease?
I'm feel like dying.
I dont know how far i can go now.
I suffered!

Same

Having the same pose.
Listening the same song.
Missing the same people.
Loving the same person.

End

Everything is end. 

I will try my best to move on.

Now I'm worry about my final, I scare it will be affected.

I will be alone now.

I'm officially single now.

From 14th april 2012, sunday.

But now all I feel is pain.

Someone bring me the strongest painkiller for me.

That can cure those pain.

But the funny thing is I'm still miss him so much. 

Wake me up when fairy tale end

Seem like thing come to the end.
I should wake up from fairy tale.
But I just can't do it.
Part of me is empty now.

两天了。
TA说TA寂寞。
那么我呢？
我的寂寞不止两天。
我不是Hebe，不能寂寞寂寞就好。
没有TA，我一点都不好。
=(

伤心时都特别感触。
不知不觉，我又按进了TA的面子书。
看看TA的东西。

看来没有我,TA还是活得很好。
那就好。

Anyone have a magic eraser?
That can erase all the unhappy memory in my mind.
Can lend to me.
I really need it now.
Anyone please help............

我。。。
好像要恢复单身了。
很不舍得。

I'm Lost... again?

I felt lost in our relationship.
I do not know what has happen now.
I knew things change but I didn't want to change.
But what you did is forcing me to the limit.
I knew our relationship is not as those normal couple.
Other get to hanging out with each other, having fun with each other, knowing each other's family and friends etc.
And what we do is just texting with each other.
But the only thing we can do and now is getting lesser and lesser.
Now I do feel like I'm having a relationship.
I can't even remember when is the last time we met each other, because is too long already.
Everytime I kept think that you are busy with your works.
But the truth is always not what I think.
I think I'm not as important as I thought for you.
Or maybe I think I'm 'psycho' again.

I just wish to have a normal relationship, those 刻苦明心 is just not my thing. 

New Member

I really up level already.
I become aunty already!!!!
Soon, a little boy will call me xiao yi yi.
Heart melted later. =P
Cant imagine how is the little boy now.
Can wait to see him!!!

Baby is so cute!

Missed The One

Recently, I kept think of our past.
Such a wonderful, beautiful, crazy, lovely we are at those moment.
Every time I thought about it, every time I smile to myself.
Like an idiot, but I enjoyed. =)
Although it is awesome memory, but memory is memory.
We can't always live in memory.
I wish to create a lot a lot of new memory.
I wish...
But I wouldn't ask, because I don't want disappointment.
I'm not complaining you didn't spend time with me.
I'm just telling what I'm thinking.
I know you busy, even I'm busy too.
But I really hope you can spend one or two hours with me.
We have almost 4 or 5 months didn't meet up.
I really missed you. =(